love you , allysha

love you allysha comel. ehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehe.

allysha comel belum dapat hadiah lagi kan?

nak bagi ke tak nak eh?

chocolate ke kain kapan?

ke abg naz and jonathan?

M.E.L.B.O.U.R.N.E #1903

                                                                                                                                     
Second day. Amazing day. 

Had this one in Queen Elizabeth Victoria Market. You can buy souvenirs for your family and friends with an affordable price from 5$ to 8$ each. Depends on what they sell at the stall. They also sell delicious, sweet fruits that are fresh. Trust me, the strawberries I had was lit.

I'm so in love like deeply obsessed with sunglasses and that stall that I went just like in the picture sold the sunglasses to me 15$ each. Again, affordable price that makes me happy. Plus , that's my darling gurlgurls behind me. The owner was also a very nice man with good sense of humor.

After that , we went to Panny's Chocolate Factory in Phillip Island. I bought two chocolates for my little brother. I knew he loved the dolphins. I bought an ice cream for myself. The journey took 3 hours to reach the islands from Victoria Market. We went there by bus.

My ootd photo session was interrupted by Nandos. Lol. I wore that beautiful orange dress from Monki to visit the island which is Phillip Island and Churchill Island.

I looked damn fat tho. So that's Nandos , my roommate. Nobbies Ocean Discovery Centre was amazing. I loved the ocean and the winds that hit me like I really felt all the cold breeze and making me wanting to stay there a little bit longer.

NOBBIES OCEAN DISCOVERY CENTRE 

This view. Masya Allah.

At Phillip Island, to watch the penguin parade. Sorry guys , phones and cameras was not allowed during the show so we couldn't record it. We had dinner and their fish and chips with salads was sumptuous .

SEKOLAH MENENGAH KEBANGSAAN CYBERJAYA

GROUP PHOTO IN PHILLIP ISLAND

My teachers and friends taking some pictures before we board the bus.

This shot was taken at the Koala Conservation Centre Phillip Island.

The koala was sleeping but we spotted them and they looked so cute.

M.E.L.B.O.U.R.N.E #1803

This shot was taken nearby. It was after our tour at the Parliament House of Victoria.

Had this one in front of the place where I stayed which is Aura Flinders. The room was lit and it can be shared by 9 to 10 people each room. The price was also very affordable.

First selfie I had near my hotel. Was waiting for the tram with my baes.

Spotted a limousine near the Parliament House and I took the chance to take some shots. Bruh , wht yr doin? majalsssss

I love the horse and its just so gorgeous but the price to enjoy the ride was killing me.

   

He adored me.

He looked  . He stared  . He glanced  . 

He was perfect , I defined him as perfect even if its not true. To be honest , 7 years of loving you , I wasn't waiting  nor hoping for you to come to me. I wished you know what I felt but you don't care. You comforted  me but then you humiliated me and you even killed me, my soul. I was honest with you but did you? I don't know what phrase that suits the situation between us. I kept asking myself numerous time if you ever loved me as much as I do. You gave me an answer that keeps me holding onto the things I shouldn't. 

I've got to thank Charlie Puth though. Why? Because his newest song called 'Attention' is the right way to describe what we have now. Maybe or just really , you just want my attention but not my heart? Why? Is it a fatal flaw to love you? I can be nice and  relaxed if you want me to but don't put me beneath you. I didn't get down to reach your hands to get up with me. I loved you? yes. But it doesn't make any sense if you keep trying to keep me when you don't even need me.

5.3.10.58

I've been walking on this path for 15 years  long,

7 years had passed and I'm still holding on, 

Is it me who's being greedy or is it us who never wanted to put a stop?

Sometimes, when our eyes meet, I stop breathing

I could still feel the air coming but its not flowing,

When I catch you staring at me, you looked away,

Sometimes, I wondered am I that ugly in a sway.

I know you cared, but you don't have to,

I sang the song so that you know I'm in phase two,

This phase was meant to happen so that I could move on.

But how I regret everything when I saw your response.

The first chocolate chip you gave to me was Famous Amos,

Though I had to pay for it , those biscuits was the latest,

You walked to me, holding a basket full of chocolate chips,

I was in awe for that moment when it happened and I hid.

We're the total jerks, trust me because it's true,

Our own ego was blinding us through,
But damn, yours was higher than mine.
Blinded by love , I expect everything is fine.

Moments that are beautiful happened between us,

It's just a secret kept hidden behind our mask,

I just hope you never take me  for granted,

Showing the love for you , I wanted to obliviate.

We keep on hurting and blaming each other,
Defending our self righteous ,
Not that I never know how persistent we can be,
But when we felt tired , we let it go on with dreams.

I do love you , but there are times when I'm tired,
So I prayed, asking for help , so that I won't be led,
To those nightmares that has been haunting me,
Before you enter my life , indeed.

I am not the reason of why they never love you,
And of course , it's your fault,
Not what I plot.
Think twice , did you try your best or they was forced by you.

Karma happens,
''You will fall in love with someone who never loves you for not loving someone who did".
And it's not what I ask for,
It is what you get from. 

Don't expect too much from me,

It'll be a fatal flaw if you did,

So please, I beg you , for the last time,

Let go of me.

We both know you never love me so why keep me?

Let the scars heal me , I was the one in fault.