Sweet 16: October 2017

To me , blogging is just like writing my diary. Its paperless and I don't really feel tired. As ideas coming out from my head and the words I wanted to write , it can be done in a moment.

Today , 18th October 2017 on Wednesday at 4.56 p.m. I'm gonna tell you about my thoughts regarding love. It has been days since the hitea and I kept remembering the same thing. It is hard. Yes, I don't love him anymore but there is something fishy in my heart. I feel like it needed to go away from me but I don't want it. Its like I'm sad but at the same time I felt happy. Although I knew that he was just joking and making fun of me also its just for the show , literally felt like he was sincere.

As the first song finished , I looked at the rose and was like awkward then I gave the rose to my friend, Farisha. Then I continued singing the second song. As we finished doing our performance , I stepped down and he was sitting on the floor because he was watching me during the show. I'm not flattered but kinda hurt by his unthoughtful actions. His beloved was there and what he did was so rude because it would've hurt his girl. I was worried only that. I sat down at my table , my heartbeat was beating faster than ever and I felt like I got into a huge accident. Then I hurriedly went to the toilet with my girls. They were shocked because of his actions like its so immature and disrespectful.

Even if it was just for the show , why not the rose is given by somebody else? What is going on with him?

Not saying that he likes me because that is never gonna happen even for thousands years later. BUT , it happened and shocked me like hella shook. My girl bestfriends was shouting like

"OH MY GOD AINA AINA AINA AINA OH MY GOD"

The whole ballroom was like shouting and some was like

"AW AWW AWWW"

I reacted so stupid which I didn't even realise that he was just playing around. He went to his girl on the left side of the stage and came back towards me with the rose. I rejected it because I felt stupid because I felt humilliated. When I rejected it , his face was shocked like

"Oh my!!! she doesnt want my flower"

And with an opened mouth he's reaction was priceless.

When I rejected his rose , someone shouted

"HAHAHAHAHAHAHA KENA TOLAK"

His face was so embarassed I guess,, and he was talking to the audience.

Due to humble and great kindness , I took the rose eventhough I felt like smashing it to his face but I couldn't because they were teachers that also attended to the hitea. Well he better thanked me though for saving his pride from people thats belittling him.

BUT , the rose is not with me anymore because I had my friend to throw it for me. Not needing it because I don't really like red rose because I'm more to white and blue roses. I actually prefer Dahlia Imperialis flower. Rose are too common and it symbolize as love.

To him , what happened was nothing but to me its a history that can never be forgotten. I mean this 7 years thing could be a book. It'll tell the story about an highschool ugly fat girl fallen in love at her early age of youth to a boy who never felt anything special about her. Its a highschool one-sided romance comedy , friendships and living life the fullest.

To describe the day , I won't say it is not fun at all because it was hella fun.

Arrived late at the venue around 3 p.m. and I was dressed in such a beautiful pink dress designed by my mother , wore a jewellery and high heels also I did my makeup. Mom lend me her Chanel shoulder pink bag which is really hot. As I walked into the hall , everyone was in awe. Ok that is what I thought. I was actually nervous because I had to sing and I chose two songs which is Hilang by Adira and How Far It'll Go By Moana.

I took so much selfies and ootd pictures with them beloved prefects especiallly with my friends and them handsome boys in tuxedos and suits with bow ties looking like The Kingsman. The party themed was Masquerade whih is really nice but for me whos wearing spectacles , it is quite a bothersome. Thank you to the form 4 prefects for the most awesomest party this year because it rocks like literally rocks.

I'm gonna miss my seniors that are leaving very soon and I can't seem to let them go yet. Thank goodness I had the chance to take photos with them and hoped that it will last forever. The memories I had with them is unforgettable.

Apart from that , as I was singing solo the song called Hilang by Adira , the PA system suddenly stopped then it worked again then I was shook. My ex-crush was coming to me with a rose. Well , that went well, thank you dearest ex crush for your kind behaviour.

It was a memorable moment for me although I've stopped everything well you know what it is. The rose was just a joke and its just for the show. Thanks and every prefects made my day.

So this is my moments with everyone.

Dorsett Putrajaya