Today , 18th October 2017 on Wednesday at 4.56 p.m. I'm gonna tell you about my thoughts regarding love. It has been days since the hitea and I kept remembering the same thing. It is hard. Yes, I don't love him anymore but there is something fishy in my heart. I feel like it needed to go away from me but I don't want it. Its like I'm sad but at the same time I felt happy. Although I knew that he was just joking and making fun of me also its just for the show , literally felt like he was sincere.
As the first song finished , I looked at the rose and was like awkward then I gave the rose to my friend, Farisha. Then I continued singing the second song. As we finished doing our performance , I stepped down and he was sitting on the floor because he was watching me during the show. I'm not flattered but kinda hurt by his unthoughtful actions. His beloved was there and what he did was so rude because it would've hurt his girl. I was worried only that. I sat down at my table , my heartbeat was beating faster than ever and I felt like I got into a huge accident. Then I hurriedly went to the toilet with my girls. They were shocked because of his actions like its so immature and disrespectful.
Even if it was just for the show , why not the rose is given by somebody else? What is going on with him?
Not saying that he likes me because that is never gonna happen even for thousands years later. BUT , it happened and shocked me like hella shook. My girl bestfriends was shouting like
"OH MY GOD AINA AINA AINA AINA OH MY GOD"
The whole ballroom was like shouting and some was like
"AW AWW AWWW"
I reacted so stupid which I didn't even realise that he was just playing around. He went to his girl on the left side of the stage and came back towards me with the rose. I rejected it because I felt stupid because I felt humilliated. When I rejected it , his face was shocked like
"Oh my!!! she doesnt want my flower"
And with an opened mouth he's reaction was priceless.
When I rejected his rose , someone shouted
"HAHAHAHAHAHAHA KENA TOLAK"
His face was so embarassed I guess,, and he was talking to the audience.
Due to humble and great kindness , I took the rose eventhough I felt like smashing it to his face but I couldn't because they were teachers that also attended to the hitea. Well he better thanked me though for saving his pride from people thats belittling him.
BUT , the rose is not with me anymore because I had my friend to throw it for me. Not needing it because I don't really like red rose because I'm more to white and blue roses. I actually prefer Dahlia Imperialis flower. Rose are too common and it symbolize as love.
To him , what happened was nothing but to me its a history that can never be forgotten. I mean this 7 years thing could be a book. It'll tell the story about an highschool ugly fat girl fallen in love at her early age of youth to a boy who never felt anything special about her. Its a highschool one-sided romance comedy , friendships and living life the fullest.
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