25th August 2017

25th August 2017, Friday. The date that I will never dare to forget. Its when thebangangs ended for good. We had a huge fight which it started because of me. Tiny problems but the impact was huge. I did wrong but I wasn't really mad about that little fact. It was really because of how I felt , people changed and maybe I do too. Eventhough the fight happens in such a harsh damn wrong way , it ended in a good damn right way. I do cherish my thebangangs but the more close we get , the more insecurities , fights and misunderstandings we have. Its just that simple to describe but its just so hard to experience it. I do wish that thebangangs lasted till jannah but without trust and Allah's blessing , how can we go on. I just hoped that they'll lead a good damn happy life. Friendships are worth it when it comes to them. All those laughter and stupidest moments , how could I ever forget. Even now, writing this , I'm smiling and laughing so damn hard.


25th August 2017 was also the day that I finally confront my ex crush. Had a help from my friend so yeah we met. I told him that I was sorry because I loved him for 7 years. Sorry that because of me , he had a rough time going on and told him that I was so damn hurt by what he said. He told his friends that I was the reason that his crush didn't like him back. Ok , he needs to realise that its karma.
But anyways , I don't care about him anymore or his life. What he wants to do , let it be. He's just nothing to me anymore. We promised to forget whatever that happened in the past , whatever that are related between us. Act like we're total strangers because it's even better that way. I have no hopes for him anymore and thats why I moved on. Its finished. Finally, WHAT I'VE WISHED FOR AND ITS GRANTED.

Its a special date to me , not because I still adore them but it's because there's so much of my wonderful moments spent with them in it. Yesterday , it's been one month since 25th August. How time flies. How people change unexpectedly and how feelings of love moved on so fast. Although it's hurtful , still I'm blessed and grateful that it happened anyway. At least , its an adventure for an adventurous queen like me.

May Allah bless us all muslims