The Year

I'm 17 this year. Wow, how time flies. Right now, in my house accompanying my youngest brother, I finally got time to post something. My hands are so stiff hahaha. So, a lot of things had happened tho it hadn't been 5 months since school started. For the first time, I passed my additional maths but failed in biology & chemistry. It's not admiring enough for a future doctor and so I've decided to break a leg this year. I'm chasing 9As and I need it. May Allah grant me 9As for SPM this year. Well, I need to work extra hard on it and not just fooling around with people.


My ex-crush, we all know who. He graduated from school & passed his SPM with flying colors. Got 8As, such a hardworking person, sadly, he just lacks one thing which is appreciation. I heard, his family had moved to Sarawak and the only person that stays in the capital city of Malaysia is him. He got himself a job, an apartment and he just broke up with his ex-girlfriend. I never asked people, information came & it knows how it needed to be landed on my ears. To my ex-crush, if I mean, if you're reading this, might as well you know that I look up to you. My best wishes & support for you is to never give up even when life puts you in pits of shits and I know you'll find a way out to survive. I pray for your success & that you'll be surrounded with kindhearted, sincere people in the future. The path may lead you to the rocky ones but never let it mislead you. Hear your heart out and if you need a shoulder to cry on, as a friend, I'm willing to give you a hand to hold, a shoulder to embrace, and a smile to make your heart calm. The history that happened between us, let time fold it into pieces & kept hidden, locked within our memories, therefore, there are many things beyond us to experience. If we were to meet again in 10 years later, I pray & wish that you & I lead a stable, happy, sophisticated, successful life.

 The main person of this post is actually me. I failed to lose fat & regain weight, yes I am suffering now. Just two days ago, a friend of mine teased me with shitty words. He made me depressed & I felt losing hope. I felt like I just needed to die. Despite that , I planned for a perfect, successful, wealthy, healthy & happy life. I don't need a man to regain consciousness. For now, I love Lee Donghae earnestly, honestly, wholeheartedly & I'm willing to give it all to be with him with Allah's blessing.